Not feeling it....

Not feeling very inspirational these days. Is that cuz I don't feel very inspired?

I watch Amercian Idol and these guys have these AMAZING voices. Such talented young men ~ I could only hope for a fraction of the talent. But alas, I think it is too late for my singing voice to be discovered.

I watch Biggest Loser & see people drop 1/2 their size but I seem to struggle with a few pounds. Am I not committed? Is there some piece of the puzzle I am missing? I am in better shape than EVER but yet not much smaller. Who said size 2, 4 or even 10 is the ideal?

I will search for my inner motivation and post more when I find it.

where have I been?

As usual time escapes me.  Could be the full time job, could be two kids & a hubby.  Could just be life.

I am watching my favorite show -- Biggest Loser.  Even though I realize "reality" tv is not REAL, this show inspires me.  It inspires me to go to the gym, to think about what I am eating, to determine what I want out of my life.

So many things are in our control, so many are not.  Why not work towards controlling the things we can fix.  Wow, what a difficult concept.  :)  What can I control?  I can control what I am eating, I can control how much exercise & sleep I get.  Ok, some might call me fiendish (thanks Melvina), some might call me a maniac (thanks Charise) but really, I am just me.  Slightly obsessive, but determined.

Today was a milestone day - I officially weigh what I did when I found out I was pregnant with Noah -- OVER three years ago!!!!  I haven't seen "onederland" in over 3 years!!!  When I was in high school, I thought weighing over 150 was DISGUSTING -- now that is my WW goal weight.  Is that my final goal?  No!  I have many of those, but small steps.....

In this journey I am on, I have found support in many places (some unexpected).  I thank everyone who is putting up with me and my slight craziness about the gym.  What is crazy?  Going 7 days a week, sometimes twice in a day.  Not biggest loser crazy, but pretty nuts for a girl who has two kids, a full time job and a two hour commute each day.   Why do I do it?  Because I am inspired!  I can do this ~ maybe not in 17 weeks like the "real" people on tv, but in my time, on my pace.

Long term goal:  to inspire others to do the best they can, everyday for every reason!

Be back soon -- hopefully sooner than months from now!

My first blog

Well here I am, a place I never thought I would find myself -- blogging on the web. Two things inspired me to start this tonight. One is the blogs of two friends who made it seem so easy (thanks Shawn & Heather). The other is a great series of books I am reading by JA Jance ~ the Evil Series (Edge of Evil, Web of Evil & Hand of Evil). I'm almost done with the 2nd (Web). The premise is a newscaster who is fired because of her age. Her son gets her set up with a blog to tell her side of the story & it continues from there.



I'm not sure where this journey will take me but I am excited to begin. This blog will be a place for me to share my weight loss journey (2009 is THE YEAR), my struggles with being a working mom, my love of books & family.



Please join me, check in often. I will post when I can & I hope to bring a smile to your face.